Best of: the Blog

5 January 2010 21:30

Smokin'Best of: the BlogPortland, OR – On September 29th of 2007 I posted my first entry to this blog. It was a quick and not-so-dirty little post coinciding with the release of Fear and my public foray into the adult industry. The Blog has evolved over the past couple years. It is at times promotional; documenting shoots, current projects and the latest releases. At other times my blog is more reflective and personal. My blog has also served as a forum for my essays and thoughts on community and what I like to call this thing of ours meaning queer leather/fetish and BDSM. On December 30th, Unzipped awarded an Unzippy to my blog as Most Informational (while still being hot) Blog. After learning of the award I got to thinking about the past year and decided to indentify ten entries that I believe best represent my contributions to the blogosphere. Now, for my “best of: the Blog’ list for 2009… Read the rest of this entry »

Why the Fuck am I Doing This?

31 December 2009 21:44

ReflectiveWhy the Fuck am I Doing This?Portland, OR – This is going to be a far more personal and reflective entry than most of those that I have written before. A couple weeks ago XBIZ, the adult industry association, announced their nominations for 2010 awards. Among nominations ranging from Toy Manufacture of the Year to GLBT Company of the year to Transsexual Performer of the Year, there are the nominations for Gay Director of the Year. Among the individuals I know and respect nominated for Gay Director of the Year are Brian Mills, Chi Chi LaRue, Chris Ward, Kristofer Weston, Mr. Pam (with Michael Lucas), Steve Cruz & Leif Gobo, Steven Scarborough, and Paul Wilde (who is co-nominated with me for our work on the Rough line). Wow! I definitely didn’t expect this kind of recognition when I first got into the industry.

To understand why I do what I have done and what motivates me toward the future, I offer my initial attractions, my proclivity toward rough trade, what it’s like getting caught in the act and how I’m cruising for more… Read the rest of this entry »

Released: Eye Contact

1 November 2009 20:56

CagedReleased: Eye ContactSeattle, WA – Last Tuesday Titan Media released Eye Contact. Although I am primarily a fetish performer, each year I try to get cast in one or two non-fetish features in an effort to broaden my experience within the industry and strengthen my cross market appeal. Last year those two features were both directed by Joe Gage. Chainsaw paired me with Braxton Bond in one of the most natural feeling sex scenes I’ve ever shot, and my performance in Home Invasion earned me Best Actor nominations with both the GayNVs and the Grabbys. Eye Contact, directed by Brian Mills, is the first of two non-fetish features I’m in that will be released this year. The second, to be released later this year, is Battle Creek Breakdown, my third feature with the legendary director, Joe Gage.

Now, for my take on Eye Contact, a look at some clips courtesy of TitanMen.com, an excerpt from the Scene Breakdown for Eye Contact and more… Read the rest of this entry »

Rough Schedule and Buff’s Boys

20 May 2009 18:02

DsRough Schedule and Buff's BoysChicago, IL –- As I sit here contemplating the myriad of events lined up for this Memorial Day weekend, I can’t help but feel a little overwhelmed and amazed. Memorial Day weekend is of course, IML Weekend in Chicago. It is also the weekend of ShibariCon, the Grabbys, play parties at the Chicago Hellfire Club and now the Pantheon of Leather Awards. With a line up like that, you’d figure Chicago would be the place you’d find me this weekend but I’m not sure I can really express just how queer this coming weekend feels to me… it’s kind of surreal…

You know, I’m still not really sure how all of this came to present itself, but somehow over the course the past year and a half, I not only became an adult video performer, but a leading player within the fetish/Sm scene both on screen and in play spaces and forums across the US and Canada. This weekend, for sure, is a long way from my roots as an activist once content acting in his local community. Read the rest of this entry »

It’s a Contact Sport

23 April 2009 19:44

PersonalIt's a Contact SportChicago, IL –- This past weekend I had a double pleasure; both the Pup (Element) from Portland and my boy Chris from Vancouver were in Seattle to visit. The Pup came in on Thursday and stayed through Monday and Chris came in late Sunday and stayed through Tuesday. This overlap allowed us a night with all three of us together.

Having the Pup in town was a treat. It’s easy to be playful with him. He just exudes that kind of energy and is eager for the interaction. He’s also quite open to a little exhibitionism as my Pup. I think one of the highlights of his visit, for both of us, came Saturday night. Read the rest of this entry »

Folsom Prison Wins GayVN Best Fetish Film

30 March 2009 11:09

ReflectiveFolsom Prison Wins GayVNs Best Fetish FilmSan Francisco, CA –- Folsom Prison wins Best Fetish Film at the 11th Annual GayVN Awards at the Castro Theater in San Francisco. This marks the third year in a row that one of Titan Media’s co-branded features with Folsom Street Events has won the Best Fetish or Fetish (Extreme) category at the GayVNs with Folsom Filth in 2007 and Fear in 2008. It is also the second year in a row that Derek and I had scenes together in the winning feature (note: Derek has been in all three). I can’t help but feel a personal sense of accomplishment following this recognition since Folsom Prison was my first venture into writing and directing. Thanks to Brian Mills’ willingness to collaborate so fully, Diesel Washington and I have co-writing credit with him and I was given the opportunity to co-direct the scenes I have in the film.

Titan brought home three other chunks of Lucite. Breakers, Bruce Cam’s xxx directorial farewell, won both Best All-Sex Film and Best HD Feature. Tommy Ruckus and Jackson Wild won Best Solo Performance for their scene in Home Invasion.

I didn’t win Best Actor and neither Derek nor I were recognized as Best Fetish Performer.

Ricky Sinz took home the Best Actor award for his role in To the Last Man. I know Ricky personally; hang with him on occasion in Chi town and my congratulations go out to him. Ricky is a fine performer and a good guy. He’s also been a safer sex advocate and educator doing things like PSAs and benefits for local Chicago groups like Test Positive Aware Network (TPAN), which is greatly appreciated.

Tober Brandt was recognized as the Best Fetish Performer of the year. I consider Tober a friend and love him like a brother because he is a real player and a genuine person. He is also twisted, queer and fucked up in ways that make Derek and I feel kindred to him while at the same time fill us with brotherly concern. Tober would be the first to admit he never said he was a role model. Nevertheless, as performers I think we have a responsibility to set a positive example. Some may disagree with me, but Tober’s body of work this past year has included bareback performances that, in my opinion, run contrary to those efforts. Tober knows how I feel about these things. We have talked about them face to face and I respect that those decisions are his to make, but with no disrespect to Tober, I believe Derek would have been a better choice for Fetish Performer. Industry awards carry some weight and I would rather see it applied to promoting performers whose activities show responsibility to our community.

Of course these are the industry awards that gave several nominations and at least one individual award (Best Bottom) to Brent Corrigan, who started out not just with bareback performances but at the illegal age of seventeen. Now, I’m not suggesting that people shouldn’t be given a second chance, but I can’t help but wonder what repercussions will come to an industry that celebrates risk behavior and controversy so blatantly – more sales to the profiteers and more risk behavior in our own communities, I’m guessing.

Folsom Prison Wins GayVNs Best Fetish FilmPersonally, I feel like I’ve already won. Less than two years ago, I entered the industry with a desire to bring safer sex and responsible play to the screen. Now I’m performing in and co-directing a new line of fetish/Sm features with Paul Wilde for Titan with Brian Mills as a mentor. Very few performers have ever been given such an opportunity.

I’m blessed. I have my boy Derek who convinced me to capture our passions on video and continually challenges me to up my game with every scene we do on set or off. And, I have a studio that has become a home. Bruce Cam and Titan Media have invested not just in me but in content that includes heavy fetish/Sm play with a consciousness of character. From performers and crews, through the editing and marketing departments, Titan represents quality in both product and principle.

I may not have been given the opportunity to do so on stage at the GayVNs, but I can express my appreciation here in this blog. Derek, Bruce, Keith, Brian and Paul… thank you for everything you have done and all that you have taught me.