Hard Choice Performer of the Year

15 February 2010 14:26

ReflectiveHard Choice Performer of the YearChicago, IL – The 16th Annual Hard Choice Awards were announced on XX-Factor yesterday. With sixteen years, the Hard Choice Awards are the second-oldest continuously running honors for all-male erotica. All gay adult films released in 2009 and reviewed in XX-Factor were eligible for consideration. Unlike the GayVNs, Grabbys and XBIZ Awards, I am told the Hard Choice Awards are determined by a single individual who has watched each film submitted for review. The winners were chosen by Onan the Vulgarian in conjunction with reviewer Harley Shadow. While these awards may not be representative of broad industry sentiment, I have always found them to be insightful and, at times, humorous. As I read the announcement yesterday, however, I was shocked to discover that I had been named this year’s Hard Choice Performer of the Year, with the following commentary… Read the rest of this entry »

Best of: the Blog

5 January 2010 21:30

Smokin'Best of: the BlogPortland, OR – On September 29th of 2007 I posted my first entry to this blog. It was a quick and not-so-dirty little post coinciding with the release of Fear and my public foray into the adult industry. The Blog has evolved over the past couple years. It is at times promotional; documenting shoots, current projects and the latest releases. At other times my blog is more reflective and personal. My blog has also served as a forum for my essays and thoughts on community and what I like to call this thing of ours meaning queer leather/fetish and BDSM. On December 30th, Unzipped awarded an Unzippy to my blog as Most Informational (while still being hot) Blog. After learning of the award I got to thinking about the past year and decided to indentify ten entries that I believe best represent my contributions to the blogosphere. Now, for my “best of: the Blog’ list for 2009… Read the rest of this entry »

Why the Fuck am I Doing This?

31 December 2009 21:44

ReflectiveWhy the Fuck am I Doing This?Portland, OR – This is going to be a far more personal and reflective entry than most of those that I have written before. A couple weeks ago XBIZ, the adult industry association, announced their nominations for 2010 awards. Among nominations ranging from Toy Manufacture of the Year to GLBT Company of the year to Transsexual Performer of the Year, there are the nominations for Gay Director of the Year. Among the individuals I know and respect nominated for Gay Director of the Year are Brian Mills, Chi Chi LaRue, Chris Ward, Kristofer Weston, Mr. Pam (with Michael Lucas), Steve Cruz & Leif Gobo, Steven Scarborough, and Paul Wilde (who is co-nominated with me for our work on the Rough line). Wow! I definitely didn’t expect this kind of recognition when I first got into the industry.

To understand why I do what I have done and what motivates me toward the future, I offer my initial attractions, my proclivity toward rough trade, what it’s like getting caught in the act and how I’m cruising for more… Read the rest of this entry »

Sextanza Twitter Contest

2 July 2009 13:36

Smokin'Sextanza Twitter ContestSeattle, WA – Tonight is Sextanza, the monthly fetish/kink party, at the Re-bar sponsored by Scott Paul Designs and LeatherPost with DJ Sweet Chris Bell and DJ FauxFaux spinning funky electro house, rock, funk, and mash-up. I know that Everett from LeatherPost, Scott Paul and photographer, Redwoodsnaps, have been working hard to make this the night for all you kinky fuckers here in Seattle and tonight promises to be a blast. With nearly all the boys in town for Blood Sweat & Fear this weekend, I know I’m planning on one hell of a good time. My boys Timmy, Chris Yosef, Derek da Silva, his boy JC, our pup Element and many of our friends will be bringing our own special brand of down-and-dirty from about ten to midnight.

If you are in Seattle, come down and enjoy the festivities, but if not you can still join the fun because I’m running a Twitter Contest in conjunction with Sextanza. Here’s how it goes… Read the rest of this entry »

Released: ROUGH. Fist and Piss

1 July 2009 10:17

DirectorReleased: ROUGH. Fist and PissSeattle, WA – Yesterday, Titan Media made the second installment of our new ROUGH line of fetish/Sm features, Fist and Piss available for sale online. Although this release follows the launch of the ROUGH line with Shock Treatment, Fist and Piss was in fact the first project Paul Wild and I co-directed for the new line. While Fist and Piss will not be regarded as ‘shocking’ as our first release, it continues the exploration into contemporary fetish and Sm by capturing the intensity and passions embodied by real players as they engage in the kind of activities that help define radical sexuality and queer identity. This time, as the title implies, we focus on two common kinks among those of us who play on an edge that others would call extreme: fisting and watersports.

In the first vignette (actually the first scene we documented with the cameras for the new line), I brought in my collared boy, Chris Yosef, to share some of our most intimate moments. In addition to him being my first collared boy, mine was the first fist he ever took, and he is the first boy I ever fisted (although I had bottomed to the scene before). That was nearly seven years ago and fisting, and to a lesser extent bondage and piss play, have become staples of the play that continues to bring us closer together. While the play captured on screen is intense and at times innovative (the fisting scene includes a full suspension in rope bondage), the intensity emanates from the deep connection and emotional bonds the boy and I share.

The second vignette features Chase Alters, Peter Axel, Clay Donovan and Colin Steele. While you will not find the same intimacy captured in the scene before, you will find an intensity none-the-less. It is an intensity that comes from a group of men that own their shared fetish for watersports, exhibitionism and sexual exploration. There is an essence of wild abandon that permeates the action much like the smell of urine filled the studio on the day we shot the scene.

Now, for a look into some of the action in Fist and Piss, courtesy of TitanMen.com, an excerpt from the Scene Breakdown for ROUGH. Fist and Piss and more… Read the rest of this entry »

Rough Schedule and Buff’s Boys

20 May 2009 18:02

DsRough Schedule and Buff's BoysChicago, IL –- As I sit here contemplating the myriad of events lined up for this Memorial Day weekend, I can’t help but feel a little overwhelmed and amazed. Memorial Day weekend is of course, IML Weekend in Chicago. It is also the weekend of ShibariCon, the Grabbys, play parties at the Chicago Hellfire Club and now the Pantheon of Leather Awards. With a line up like that, you’d figure Chicago would be the place you’d find me this weekend but I’m not sure I can really express just how queer this coming weekend feels to me… it’s kind of surreal…

You know, I’m still not really sure how all of this came to present itself, but somehow over the course the past year and a half, I not only became an adult video performer, but a leading player within the fetish/Sm scene both on screen and in play spaces and forums across the US and Canada. This weekend, for sure, is a long way from my roots as an activist once content acting in his local community. Read the rest of this entry »