Best of: the Blog

5 January 2010 21:30

Smokin'Best of: the BlogPortland, OR – On September 29th of 2007 I posted my first entry to this blog. It was a quick and not-so-dirty little post coinciding with the release of Fear and my public foray into the adult industry. The Blog has evolved over the past couple years. It is at times promotional; documenting shoots, current projects and the latest releases. At other times my blog is more reflective and personal. My blog has also served as a forum for my essays and thoughts on community and what I like to call this thing of ours meaning queer leather/fetish and BDSM. On December 30th, Unzipped awarded an Unzippy to my blog as Most Informational (while still being hot) Blog. After learning of the award I got to thinking about the past year and decided to indentify ten entries that I believe best represent my contributions to the blogosphere. Now, for my “best of: the Blog’ list for 2009… Read the rest of this entry »

Why the Fuck am I Doing This?

31 December 2009 21:44

ReflectiveWhy the Fuck am I Doing This?Portland, OR – This is going to be a far more personal and reflective entry than most of those that I have written before. A couple weeks ago XBIZ, the adult industry association, announced their nominations for 2010 awards. Among nominations ranging from Toy Manufacture of the Year to GLBT Company of the year to Transsexual Performer of the Year, there are the nominations for Gay Director of the Year. Among the individuals I know and respect nominated for Gay Director of the Year are Brian Mills, Chi Chi LaRue, Chris Ward, Kristofer Weston, Mr. Pam (with Michael Lucas), Steve Cruz & Leif Gobo, Steven Scarborough, and Paul Wilde (who is co-nominated with me for our work on the Rough line). Wow! I definitely didn’t expect this kind of recognition when I first got into the industry.

To understand why I do what I have done and what motivates me toward the future, I offer my initial attractions, my proclivity toward rough trade, what it’s like getting caught in the act and how I’m cruising for more… Read the rest of this entry »

Folsom Prison Wins Best Fetish Film at 2009 Grabbys

24 May 2009 10:28

ReflectiveFolsom Prison Wins Best Fetish Film at 2009 GrabbysChicago, IL – Yesterday evening I attended the 18th Annual Grabby Awards with my boys, Derek da Silva and Chris Yosef and our pup, Element (pictured right). We joined director Brian Mills and my fellow Titan exclusives Dean Flynn and Will Parker at the studio table and helped collect three Grabby honors. The first was Folsom Prison‘s Grabby for Best Fetish Video. This was a particular honor because I helped co-write Folsom Prison with Brian Mills and Diesel Washington and it was my first opportunity to help direct the scenes in which I performed. Titan Media also earned a Grabby for Best Art Direction with Funhouse and Dean Flynn took home Lucite as the Grabby’s Best Versatile Performer of 2008. Read the rest of this entry »

Folsom Prison Wins GayVN Best Fetish Film

30 March 2009 11:09

ReflectiveFolsom Prison Wins GayVNs Best Fetish FilmSan Francisco, CA –- Folsom Prison wins Best Fetish Film at the 11th Annual GayVN Awards at the Castro Theater in San Francisco. This marks the third year in a row that one of Titan Media’s co-branded features with Folsom Street Events has won the Best Fetish or Fetish (Extreme) category at the GayVNs with Folsom Filth in 2007 and Fear in 2008. It is also the second year in a row that Derek and I had scenes together in the winning feature (note: Derek has been in all three). I can’t help but feel a personal sense of accomplishment following this recognition since Folsom Prison was my first venture into writing and directing. Thanks to Brian Mills’ willingness to collaborate so fully, Diesel Washington and I have co-writing credit with him and I was given the opportunity to co-direct the scenes I have in the film.

Titan brought home three other chunks of Lucite. Breakers, Bruce Cam’s xxx directorial farewell, won both Best All-Sex Film and Best HD Feature. Tommy Ruckus and Jackson Wild won Best Solo Performance for their scene in Home Invasion.

I didn’t win Best Actor and neither Derek nor I were recognized as Best Fetish Performer.

Ricky Sinz took home the Best Actor award for his role in To the Last Man. I know Ricky personally; hang with him on occasion in Chi town and my congratulations go out to him. Ricky is a fine performer and a good guy. He’s also been a safer sex advocate and educator doing things like PSAs and benefits for local Chicago groups like Test Positive Aware Network (TPAN), which is greatly appreciated.

Tober Brandt was recognized as the Best Fetish Performer of the year. I consider Tober a friend and love him like a brother because he is a real player and a genuine person. He is also twisted, queer and fucked up in ways that make Derek and I feel kindred to him while at the same time fill us with brotherly concern. Tober would be the first to admit he never said he was a role model. Nevertheless, as performers I think we have a responsibility to set a positive example. Some may disagree with me, but Tober’s body of work this past year has included bareback performances that, in my opinion, run contrary to those efforts. Tober knows how I feel about these things. We have talked about them face to face and I respect that those decisions are his to make, but with no disrespect to Tober, I believe Derek would have been a better choice for Fetish Performer. Industry awards carry some weight and I would rather see it applied to promoting performers whose activities show responsibility to our community.

Of course these are the industry awards that gave several nominations and at least one individual award (Best Bottom) to Brent Corrigan, who started out not just with bareback performances but at the illegal age of seventeen. Now, I’m not suggesting that people shouldn’t be given a second chance, but I can’t help but wonder what repercussions will come to an industry that celebrates risk behavior and controversy so blatantly – more sales to the profiteers and more risk behavior in our own communities, I’m guessing.

Folsom Prison Wins GayVNs Best Fetish FilmPersonally, I feel like I’ve already won. Less than two years ago, I entered the industry with a desire to bring safer sex and responsible play to the screen. Now I’m performing in and co-directing a new line of fetish/Sm features with Paul Wilde for Titan with Brian Mills as a mentor. Very few performers have ever been given such an opportunity.

I’m blessed. I have my boy Derek who convinced me to capture our passions on video and continually challenges me to up my game with every scene we do on set or off. And, I have a studio that has become a home. Bruce Cam and Titan Media have invested not just in me but in content that includes heavy fetish/Sm play with a consciousness of character. From performers and crews, through the editing and marketing departments, Titan represents quality in both product and principle.

I may not have been given the opportunity to do so on stage at the GayVNs, but I can express my appreciation here in this blog. Derek, Bruce, Keith, Brian and Paul… thank you for everything you have done and all that you have taught me.

2009 GayVN Award Nominations

19 February 2009 12:06

Reflective2009 GayVN Award NominationsSeattle, WA –- Given the amount of focus and energy I have been spending on ‘what’s next’ I haven’t had much time to reflect on the past year and the body of work created. Truth is I was on set at the Titan studios filming the first in our upcoming line of hardcore fetish/Sm line of features on Tuesday last week when the slurry of messages began coming in regarding the GayVN Awards nominations. I must admit, I am honored to be among the many, many talented individuals recognized for their contributions to the industry and just as pleased to have played a role in helping to create many of the nominated features released by Titan Media.

The previously un-reported addition of a category for Best Fetish Performer was the most pleasant surprise for me personally. The inclusion of this category represents the growing trend toward more BDSM/fetish content within the industry and a validation of the efforts many of us have been making to bring responsible portrayals of our play to the screen. I am honored to be among the first nominees to this new category and doubly proud that my boy Derek da Silva shares this distinction with a nomination of his own. Considering the fact that four of the features nominated for Best Fetish Film (Folsom Prison, Sounding #1, Folsom Undercover & the Mechanic) feature performances from either one or both of us, I think it is safe to claim the efforts we’ve made to bring this thing of ours to a broader audience of new and potential players.

2009 GayVN Award NominationsMy second individual nod came in the form of a Best Actor nomination for my role in Home Invasion. From my experience on stage I know that any actor’s performance is only as good as the script they’re working off and the director they are working under (no pun intended), so it came as no surprise that Joe Gage received both Best Director and Best Screenplay nominations for Home Invasion, that Tyler Saint would get a Best Supporting Actor nom or Tommy Ruckus and Jackson Wild would get a joint Best Solo Performance nod for their roles in the film. Home Invasion is also the source of the first of two Best Group Scene nominations that include me, this one shared with Jackson Wild, Sean Preston, Ty Roberts and Tommy Ruckus (although I’m pretty sure that scene also included Geoffrey Paine).

2009 GayVN Award NominationsI did two features directed by Brian Mills from the co-branded TitanMen/Folsom line of hardcore/fetish films that garnered a total of five nominations. As mentioned, Folsom Prison was nominated for Best Fetish Film. The other Best Group Scene nomination came for my performance in Folsom Undercover with Tyler Peter, Dirk Jager and Frank Philipp. Folsom Undercover received three other nominations including Best Leather Film, Best Marketing and Best Fetish Film.

2009 GayVN Award NominationsThose of us at the studio were truly happy to learn Breakers received so many nominations since it was director Bruce Cam’s farewell opus and the first gay adult film released on Blu-ray. The film earned Bruce a Best Director nomination in addition to nods for Best Picture, Best All-Sex Film, Best HD Feature, Best Packaging, Best Marketing, Best DVD Extras and Best DVD Special Edition. My co-director on the new fetish/Sm line for Titan, Paul Wilde and cameraman Jeff Slurry received Best Cinematography nominations for their work on Breakers. James Sheridan and Kawai, who will be editing the new line, also received nods for Best Editing on the film. And the performances delivered by Dean Flynn, Rick van Sant and myself earned a Best Threesome nomination for our contributions.

Of final note here is Titan’s third fantasy trip to the carnival, Funhouse. This visually stunning feature earned Brian Mills a Best Director nomination in addition to a Best Art Direction nom for both him and Paul Wilde. The film also garnered a nomination for Best All-Sex Film and Dean Flynn and Eric Moreau a Best Sex Scene – Duo nom.

The GAYVN Awards are dedicated to recognizing outstanding movies and talented individuals who have contributed to the advancement of the gay adult entertainment industry. Its broad-based, nation-wide panel of judges, predominantly gay-press-affiliated, has been awarding trophies for 21 years, making the GAYVN Awards the most respected and recognized awards in gay adult entertainment history. You can view a complete list of all the 2009 GayVN Award Nominations or Titan Media’s Press Release at your leisure. The 2009 GayVN Awards Show will be held at the Castro Theatre in San Francisco on Saturday, March 28th, 2009. You can buy tickets for all the weekend events here. You can bet Derek and I will be there.

Making History & Award Nominations

14 March 2008 10:46

CagedMaking History & Award NominationsSeattle, WA –- After returning home from San Francisco, I learned Titan Media and the cast & crew of Breakers had made history. On Wednesday, Titan released Breakers on Blu-ray making it the first gay adult feature released in the new high-definition format. You can read the official Press Release from Titan here.

In other news: I was involved with two of the eight features from Titan to receive Graddy nominations. Breakers has received three nominations including: Best All-Sex Video, Best Director- Bruce Cam, and Best Videography-Brian Mills/Paul Wilde. Fear was nominated for Best Fetish Extreme Video. You can read about all the Grabby nominations received by Titan in the Press Release here.

An excellent review of Breakers on ManNet.com was also pointed out to me after I got home. The “Highly, Highly Recommended” review reads, in part:

In the finale, horny and unstoppable Tony Buff takes on two bottoms again, this time François and Darius. The back of a battered old pick-up truck is the setting, and with François and Darius on all-fours, Tony has all the hot ass anyone could possibly need to get off. Cocksucking gets things rolling, and Darius in particular has a great time downing Tony’s thick meat. That juicy slab of cock meat also looks amazing when it’s sliding in and out of François, his pucker opening up wide to take it all in. Not that he has anything else to prove, but Tony’s stud status is further affirmed when he lines up François and Darius side by side to fuck them missionary-style. The dude certainly has the credentials to be a power top. He even kisses the two men he’s just fucked while their cum is still dripping. There’s a man who can have any ass he wants, more or less.

The review in it’s entirety can be found here.

Rock Hard with the TitanMen

16 February 2008 16:26

CagedRock Hard with the TitanMenSan Francisco, CA –- The first official event of the weekend was a public appearance at the Rock Hard in San Francisco’s Castro neighborhood. It was a promotional event coinciding with the VOD premiere of Breakers exclusively on NakedSword.com.

Breakers Director and Titan Media studio head Bruce Cam was present with Vice President Keith Webb, Director Brian Mills, Cinematographer Paul Wild and Production Coordinator Ed Vincent. The TitanMen on-hand included (as pictured from left to right): Damien Crosse, Rick Van Sant, Dean Flynn, Diesel Washington, Alex Berasi, Derek da Silva, Tony Buff, and Bjoern Giger. Sometimes I still find it hard to believe I’m associated with a studio of Titan’s caliber and included with performers like those pictured above.

Rock Hard with the TitanMen (Bonus) As Breakers played in the background on a large flat-screen TV inside the shop we were occupied by signing autographs, photo ops and questions about our work. While Dean, Alex and I were taking our turn inside we got a chance to snap this picture (left) with Julian from NakedSword.com.

As those of you who read my journal regularly already know, I really enjoyed working with Dean Flynn; he’s a beautiful, intelligent guy and talented performer. What I haven’t shared yet is what a pleasure it was working with Alex Berasi. I got a chance to complete a scene with him and Vinnie D’Angelo for Folsom Prison (in production now) a couple weeks ago. I was a bit concerned about the size difference (Alex is a gorilla of a man) but the connection between us was so good I think it’s is one of the best scenes in which I’ve been. Not to mention he’s so sweet, I just want to lock him in a cage and shove bananas… but I digress. The prison-themed Folsom feature is slated for release over IML weekend. If the energy of that scene is any indication of film as a whole it will be well worth the purchase price.

We left immediately following our appearance for rehearsals at the Giftcenter. No comment on that particular cluster-fuck. We’ve got a little over an hour to get ready for the show. Wish us luck in the extreme category.

Breakers Released

20 December 2007 14:28

CagedBreakers ReleasedSeattle, WA — On Tuesday, Titan Media released Breakers, the last triple-x feature directed by GayVN Hall of Fame Director, Bruce Cam. Shot in high-definition on and around the Titan ranch and released in 16×9 anamorfic widescreen format, Breakers promises to be visually stunning and I’m looking forward to seeing the finished product.

There are several memories from that shoot in mid September I can share.

It was my first time working with Bruce Cam on set and a wonderful opportunity for the two of us to get to know each other better. He shot a lot of b-roll and behind the scenes footage with me while I was there. I learned much about his approach to filming, understanding of the industry, personal character and public commitments while watching him work and chatting with him as time permitted.

Francois Sagat was on set while I was there as well. While we didn’t have a scene scheduled together, some of the b-roll segments I’ve mentioned captured our interaction on tape. Sagat is a sweet and sexy man so I wasn’t surprised by my attraction to him or the chemistry between us. I was, however, surprised by how clearly I could see it all resonate on screen when Cam showed me some of the dailies. I already knew I wanted to take Sagat, thought it would look great caught on tape, and shared these thoughts with Cam for future reference.

Breakers Released (Bonus)My partners for the action scene I was brought down for were Dean Flynn and Rick van Sant. I had met Flynn on the set of Fear. While he’s well over six feet tall, his boyish charm and physique reminded me of a college jock; adventurous, cock sure and open to my advances. I had never met van Sant, but his reputation as a world class fisting bottom gave portent of things to come… you never really know what the studio is going to ask for or exactly how a scene will play out until you’re on set and the cameras are rolling. In Breakers I belt Flynn’s ass ’til it’s red and have my fist fucked to the elbow by van Sant on a picnic table, not to mention the pounding both got from my favorite stick to beat a boy with.

About mid-way through the second day of shooting, Brian Mills asked if I would be will to stay over an extra day to shoot a half scene with Darius Falke and Sagat. Normally, I would have jumped on such an opportunity; unfortunately I had clients scheduled the following day. Luckily my clients are very understanding and responses to my requests to reschedule sessions were all in the affirmative. So I stayed over another day and had a blast with Falke and Sagat. The best part came after we were finished shooting and Sagat came up to me and said, in that adorable French accent of his, “You know when you were fucking me? I was not acting.” It felt like the sweetest thing anyone had ever said to me.

My copies are in the mail and I’ll post my thoughts after I see the DVDs. Until then you can read more about the release here or purchase it at the TitanMen website.