There’s Something Special about the Relationship between a boy and his Sir

11 October 2008 17:27

MineThere's Something Special about the Relationship between a boy and his SirSan Francisco, CA –- There is something special about the Sir/boy relationship. I am specifically reminded of this fact this weekend because I am in San Francisco to judge the International Leather Sir/boy and International Community Bootblack contest. And, of course it doesn’t hurt that my boy Derek (photo right courtesy of Rich Trove) has joined me from Chicago for the weekend.

There are many archetypical Dom/sub relationships in the leather/Sm scene. In the men’s community the most common I witness are Sir/boy, Daddy/boy and Master/slave relationships. In truth the nature of these relationships are as varied as the individuals involved in them, but I have come to recognize some generalizations common to those who self identify as being part of these relationships and my experience in two of the three.

To be honest, I have no experience in a Master/slave relationship and the concept seems contrived to me. Perhaps this is because I’m ethically opposed to the prospect of one human being owning another, the fact that it is now illegal in most of the civilized world or my inability to (in)voluntarily submit in such a manner has left me lacking an understanding. So, I’ve opened myself to learning more about this type of relationship from those who have experienced it and will not comment on it further here until I can write more intelligently about it.

I do however have some experience within the Daddy/boy relationship, most recently as one of Dave Lewis’ boys before he died several years ago. In many ways my brothers in the Dragon Clan who were collared or given a medallion by Dave still feel in service to him and will always know him as Daddy. Each of us have grown from his guidance, learned through our play with him and been grateful for his presence in our lives.

The hallmark of the Daddy/boy relationship, in my experience has been mentorship. As a boy, Daddy for me was an elder, wiser, more experienced and capable man. He was the patriarch of the family. He was the one we turned to for advice, counsel, comfort and support. Daddy was the one that taught us about community starting with the family as a foundation. For all these reasons I have a deep respect for the Daddy/boy relationship. I have been a good, if perhaps mischievous boy in my time and trust I will, in time become a Daddy in my own right some day.

I have far more experience within the Sir/boy construct of the D/s relationship. When I earned my collar nearly twenty years ago (have I really been doing this thing of ours that long?), it was in this type of relationship. It wasn’t my collar at first of course. It belonged to a man I respected and trusted enough to place myself in his charge. He wasn’t my Daddy; more like an uncle or senior officer, which stands to reason. Ours was more a military/Sm family than a leather/Sm family. All of the immediate and most of the extended family were either prior service or currently serving in the Navy or Marines.
Our common experience in the service carried over to our family dynamic. Doms were like commanding officers, alpha boys were like Staff NCOs and I took my place as the ‘newbie’ learning as much as I could about this new world of Sm.

While I will not go into all the details here (the ravages of AIDS in the late ’80s and early ’90s tore many loved ones from those of us who lived through those years), but when Uncle Mike passed on, the collar was left with me.

It took ten years for me to transition from that orphaned boy with a collar in his hands to the one with the skills and confidence to top my own scenes. It would be five more years and almost as many boys before I found the boy who now wears that collar.

There’s no doubt, Derek is mine. We are clearly in a Dom/sub relationship, but what is the nature of that relationship? Some have suggested we are Master/slave. This isn’t accurate. I would not be so presumptuous as to call myself Master and Derek is a man in his own right with a voice in even our relationship. Am I the Daddy? Perhaps I am to some boys just coming out into the scene but not to this boy. Derek is in fact older than I and in many ways more experienced in the leather/Sm scene.

To me, the term Sir is more a salutation than a title. There is about as much chance of me becoming a Leather Sir title holder as there is being knighted by the Queen Mother. Again, I fall back upon my military and early Sm experience. When you hear me call someone Sir it emanates from an interpersonal respect for the character of the individual and the contributions they make to my community of family and friends.

When Derek calls me Sir, it warms my heart and lifts my spirit like no other term of endearment. Here is a boy as worthy of being a peer as any brother who has voluntarily placed himself in my charge. There is a mutual trust and respect here that allows for great collaboration, shared exploration, individual growth and intense bonding.

There's Something Special about the Relationship between a boy and his SirYes, the relationship between a Daddy and his boy is special, but there is something exceptional about the relationship between a boy and his Sir… at least in my experience.

I’m happy to be here this weekend as we celebrate that relationship, the time honored tradition of boot blacking in our community and a renewed focus on making the International Leather Sir/boy and Community Bootblack the players’ titles.

My fellow judges including Alex Dunlop, Woodie Barnes, John Pendal, Ms Kendra, Sir Mike Russell, Queen Cougar, Nikitas Chondroyannos, Mr. Marcus Hernandez, and Master Mike Zuhl (pictured above courtesy of Rich Trove) have a daunting task ahead of us.

Hangin’ in My Home Town

23 September 2008 3:03

MonsignoreHangin' in My Home TownSeattle, WA – With all the travel and events I’ve engaged in lately, I’m enjoying a little down time here at home in Seattle. I’ve been catching up on work, taking care of some much needed house-keeping, spending some time with my family and missing the two boys I’m most connected to.

The training business is picking up a bit. I’ve been slamming a full month of sessions into two weeks because of my little Inferno vacation, revamping client programs for fall and networking to bring new clients into the pipeline. Work with the two non-profit boards I serve on continues. I’ve pulled out of helping to prepare our Northwest titleholders for the International competition because I’ll be judging the contest in San Francisco next month, but Generic Leather Productions of Washington has several other projects I’m involved with and our annual meeting for the Washington State Mr|Ms Leather Organization is coming up in a few weeks. And, last Friday I taught a class on single tails for Tribal Instincts, Seattle Men in Leather’s educational series.

Hangin' in My Home TownSide Bar: The class wasn’t very well attended. It might be that I’m just getting used to presenting to audiences of 50 (the needle demo Derek and I did at Inferno this year) to 100 (the class with Midori in Chicago), but I’m afraid it is more a reflection of SML’s floundering as an organization. I know a couple of months ago, the Dragon Clan (my leather family) were informed that our play at the leather socials, with all the whip cracks and noise from flogging scenes, was disruptive to peoples’ conversations. Give me a fucking break. SML has always been welcoming to both the leather/Sm and the leather/S&M crowds (go ahead, ask me about the distinction), but I’m getting the impression that the organization is losing its soul. This tears me apart because Dave Lewis, my Daddy in Seattle until he died, invested so much into SML and I don’t want to just walk away from the organization. We’re having another social at the Cuff this Wednesday. The Dragons will be there. Hopefully, other players will be too.

Speaking of the family, I met my brothers Gene and Odie out at the Cuff Sunday night. It was a pretty slow night, but a good opportunity to touch base and talk about the stuff coming up. And some of the boys were there too, including Danny (pictured above) a new boy to Seattle who was brought to my attention by my boy Derek. I got to meet Danny a few weeks ago during Northwest Leather Weekend and invited him to join Derek and I at the play party the Saturday night. Since then he seems to have found a comfortable home within the fold of our crew.

All in all, it’s been a good and productive period but I’m missing my boys immensely. Derek is home in Chicago and Jeff is on vacation in Hawaii. Both close to my heart and always on my mind but thousands of miles away. With busy days and close friends here in Seattle to occupy my time I shouldn’t feel so lonely but I do nonetheless. I’m looking forward to seeing Derek in San Francisco this weekend and thrilled that Jeff will be joining us at the street fair on Sunday. I’m going to be one very happy man.

Northwest Leather Weekend 2008

31 August 2008 17:28

MonsignoreNorthwest Leather Weekend 2008Seattle, WA — Yesterday was my thirty-eighth birthday. This weekend has also included the events associated with Northwest Leather. And while those of you who read my blog regularly may grow tired of reading it over and over, I must state again how truly blessed I am by the people with whom I share my life.

My boy Derek and his partner of twelve-plus years, Doug, came out from Chicago to be with me for my birthday. You can imagine my joy in having Derek with me; the connection we share is probably the strongest in my life right now. And my relationship with Doug has grown beyond my expectations. Although the relationship Doug and I have is not of the D/s variety, I still consider him one of my boys and the bonds we three share create a kind of family. While it may not seem familiar to many, it is my core.

Of course there is another boy I’ve been trying to court into this strange family of ours for almost a year now. Jeff and I have had some challenge over the past couple months but I am cautiously optimistic of the future. He’s out of town this weekend but we had a chance to reconnect before he left. I’m not sure how things will progress but I do know I am very much in love with him. It’s clear he loves me in return, too. I think this may scare him a little but with time we’ll figure out what to make of our relationship.

Then there is my foundation, the Dragon Clan. My brothers and our whelps form the base of what I consider my community. Gene and Odie (pictured above) in particular are sources of inspiration and support. I can’t count the number of times over the course of the past year the Dragons have offered their encouragement and compassion. These have been my first responders when I have sought counsel and comfort.

Northwest Leather Weekend 2008Expanding beyond this foundation is my broader community of family and friends. Having the Northwest Leather weekend coincide with my birthday gives me the opportunity to spend the time with them as well. Leather/Sm events in Seattle tend to attract the best players from throughout the Pacific Northwest, many of whom I consider among my closest friends. I got to see some of the women that contribute so much, including Lynnda, Alycyn, Tobin, Alyxx and Matisse. I had a chance to thank Malixe for all the photos he’s taken over the years (including those posted with this entry). I got to visit with guys outside the men’s community like Max and Monk in addition to the many gay and queer men I know from Seattle and Portland. I even got to play a little with my favorite girl from Toronto Gloria (pictured left) who came in to judge the contest.

All in all, it was a glorious weekend that also produced three new titleholders for the Northwest region: Rich Bryan as Northwest Leather Sir 2008, John Trueman as Northwest Leather boy and Shell Bishop as Northwest Community Bootblack 2008. Congratulations to each of them.

Next up on my schedule: Inferno XXXVII. I leave for Chicago on Wednesday then drive out with Derek. This will be my third Inferno and our second anniversary. To say I’m excited would be an understatement.

Great Lakes Leather Alliance Weekend 2008

24 August 2008 10:19

TrainerGreat Lakes Leather Alliance Weekend 2008Indianapolis, ID – After flying into Chicago on Thursday, Derek and I drove into Indianapolis for Great Lakes Leather Alliance (GLLA) weekend on Friday. We were invited to present a Shibari class as part of the extensive series of educational workshops associated with the event. This was a welcome trip since I had not been able to see the boy for several weeks. It was also a wonderful opportunity to visit with friends from around the country and make new friends in the Great Lakes region.

Ms Kendra, the Executive Director of GLLA, and her crew produce a spectacular event in Indianapolis. By combining several title contests, offering quality BDSM workshops, open events and an excellent dungeon space / play party in a hotel setting the weekend attracts a large crowd of true players from the region. As far as regional contest events go, GLLA is a fine example to emulate.

Congratulations to all the new titleholders from the Great Lakes Region. They are pictured above from left to right, standing: Trooper (Great Lakes Bootblack 2008) Lisandro, (Mr. Mid-States Leather 2008), Sir Merrill, (Great Lakes Leather Sir 2009), Mistress Simone (Great Lakes Ms Leather Pride 2008), and Master Gallad (Great Lakes Master 2008); and kneeling: boy neil (Great Lakes Leather boy 2009) and slave kelly (Great Lakes slave 2008). And, kudos to the many volunteers that helped make the weekend a success.

Great Lakes Leather Alliance Weekend 2008The Shibari class Derek and I conducted on Friday was on one of the Quick Arm Binders we teach. There were about thirty or so people in the class. It was well received and I was really pleased to see several of the attendees practicing throughout the weekend. As promised, I’ve posted the handouts with step-by-step instructions for both the Speed Coil and the Binder. You can find the PDF file here or by following the linked image on the left.

Unfortunately, it may be some time before I can post this particular entry or update this site at all. Early Friday morning my computer went non-operational. I’m not terribly worried because all the data is safely backed-up. Online correspondence however will be shoddy at best for an indeterminable period. Please bear with me.

On a more personal note, there was one specific addition to the weekend that I truly appreciated. The organizers made an anonymous, rapid HIV testing service available to all the attendees. When I heard this announced, I thought for a moment and realized that it had been over a year since my last test. My travel schedule and the immediate availability of close support had pushed this particular action item down my to-do list. With my boy Derek and Dragon Clan brothers Gene and Mark close at hand, I decided that there was no time like the present and went to get tested.

There is always trepidation and anxiety associated with getting tested… even when the wait is only twenty minutes. Yes, I play safe, but there is always a risk unless you abstain completely, which is something I won’t do. Testing positive is one of the last things anyone familiar with the consequences of HIV wants to learn. Thankfully, my test came back negative and I can now begin my thirty-eighth year with that knowledge.

Upcoming Events in August

31 July 2008 19:23

MonsignoreUpcoming Events in AugustSeattle, WA –- It appears August is going to be a busy month filled with events at home here in Seattle and out of town.

First up on the calendar is Oregon State Leather Pride Week in Portland. I’m traveling down with several of my Dragon Clan brothers on Saturday for the Oregon State Mr & Ms Leather Contest on the 3rd and will be teaching a class on Interrogation Techniques subtitled Confession is Good for the Soul with brothers Gene and Odie for ‘Sunday School w/Bad Girls’. Click here for more information on this year’s Oregon State Leather Pride events.

On Saturday August 9th, I’ll be co-hosting the Queen City Cruise with (direct from Miami Beach) Marina Dennis. Marina and I will be introducing our lineup of performers for the Pre-Boarding Show including Poison Waters, Alexis Champagne, Chablis and Mark ‘Mom’ Finley. Then we’ll provide continuing color commentary aboard the cruise. I’ve been volunteering time to the cruise for several years now and always have a great time. The Queen City Cruise is produced by the Seattle Chapter of Tacky Tourist Clubs of America, an organization known for its imaginatively outrageous events and excursions. Since 1981, Tacky Tourist Clubs has donated over $275,000 to other non-profit groups. This year’s beneficiaries include Gay City Health Project, Gay World Series Organizing Committee and Action Northwest’s Backpack Project. I understand we still have some tickets left to this typically sold out event so you still have a chance to get yours now.

On the 22nd I’ll be heading to Indianapolis with my boy da Silva for the Great Lakes Leather Alliance Weekend where we’ll be presenting Shibari with Male subs. Fellow CHC brothers Rob and Joey will be stepping down as 2008 Great Lakes Leather Sir and boy (respectively) that weekend and I’m looking forward to seeing them and several other friends while I’m there. Brother Gene will be judging the contest and brothers Odie and Mark are planning to go as well so I’m sure the Dragons will find some trouble to get into.

Upcoming Events in AugustFinally, Derek and I are back in Seattle over Labor Day weekend for the Northwest Leather Sir/boy & Community Bootblack Contest. The Meet & Greet will be held at the Cuff Complex on Friday the 29th from 9pm to 11pm. The main event will be on Saturday the 30th at the Cuff starting at 7pm (doors at 6pm). It’s my birthday that day so I’m intent to have a good time that evening and at the play party afterward. To learn more about Generic Leather Productions of Washington (GLPW), the producers of these events, check out What We Do and Why. Yes that’s me, naked in Cal Anderson Park smoking a cigarette. I am a whore.

Thunder in the Mountains 2008

28 July 2008 8:50

TrainerThunder in the MountainsDenver, CO –- When I was asked to present at Thunder in the Mountains earlier this year I jumped on the opportunity. I knew by reputation that this event was among the most respected BDSM events organized and that it was known for attracting some of the best presenters in the world. This year’s presenters included some good friends, personally respected players and new acquaintances on the national scene.

Susan B, another Seattleite whom I’ve seen engage in some beautiful, intense and spiritually connected scenes, was there, teaching advanced cutting and suturing. Midori was there and while I wasn’t able to attend any of her classes (they were scheduled at the same time as mine), we were able to spend some quality time together and I was able to introduce her to my boy Derek.

Side Bar: We discussed performance art in relation to Sm, among other things. I’m sure I’ve already reported upon my respect for the intelligence of both Midori and my boy. Let me now state, unequivocally, that talking about any subject in the company of such intellectuals is a challenge to keep up. I am truly blessed by the company I keep.

Speaking of performance art, I got to judge the annual talent contest at Thunder and Felice Shays, another presenter, delivered a spectacular piece that included the fisting of a watermelon that is among the best performances I’ve seen.

I also got a chance to hang out with Mark Frazier, the new owner of the ILSb title which I’ll be judging in October, and Scott Smith, one of the most incredible tops I’ve ever meet. I can’t express how happy I am with the changes Frazier has made to the ILSb title, his efforts to reclaim it as a player’s title or my admiration for him as a person. Then there’s Scott, it’s always a pleasure to see him… he’s got some wicked skills and I love learning new, twisted shit from him. I lent Derek out to him for his class on using needles as anchors and even got to assist a bit. It was great fun.

As for my classes, they went very well. There were more people in attendance than I expected and both presentations were well received. It is so much fun to present before such an advanced audience. As promised, I’m posting the slide decks from both classes here for reference. Both the Shibari with Man subs and Full Suspension for Display and Play handouts are in pdf format.

I want to express my compliments to Rich Dockter, the Director of Thunder, and his entire crew of staff and volunteers, for putting on an outstanding event. I’m happy to report Derek and I have been invited back next year and we are already looking forward to doing it again.

In Memoriam: David Caldwell

24 July 2008 18:15

MonsignoreIn Memoriam: David CaldwellSeattle, WA –- Shortly after my last past while in Chicago, I learned that David Caldwell had passed away. David was a beloved member of our leather/Sm community and had been serving as Northwest Leather Boy this year. He was also a regular client and dear friend. Without going into the details of his death, I will simply state his passing was a senseless tragedy that left many of us emotionally wrecked… myself among them.

I haven’t felt much like writing the last few weeks. Truth be told, I hadn’t felt like doing much of anything.

Last Saturday we held a memorial at the Cuff for David. It gave us an opportunity to come together, remember and celebrate his life. I can’t say I’m not still angry, but I must say it’s time to let go.

Re: Connecting

1 July 2008 22:13

ReflectiveRe: ConnectingSeattle, WA –- It’s been a while since my last post, I know. The past month has been occupied by my work with clients, another ‘art film’ with Titan, community events and reconnecting with my boys Derek and Jeff.

Business has been slow but the clients I have are all enjoyable to work with and incredibly understanding of my travel schedule. The economy sucks. There, I said it. I’m convinced the present leadership in the government (at least two of the three branches) has really fucked things up. I still have client openings and prospects are thin so I’m working to build (and diversify) my business.

Speaking of diversification, I did have another shoot with Titan last month. According to Brian Mills in the June issue of GayVN Magazine, Funhouse has been pushed off for a Halloween release date. This necessitated the production of another fetish release for the Folsom Street Fair in September, so I was brought down for a scene in early June. My scene partners were Dirk Jager, Frank Philipp and Tyler Peters. It was a challenging shoot because of the amount of action we captured but I’m confident we delivered. I’m sure I’ll post more on the subject once the movie is released.

Derek and I got to spend two extended weekends together without any official responsibilities last month. It was important for us to reconnect at that level after the extensive amount of time we’ve spent engaged in outside projects. The first weekend we attended BootCamp, a BDSM retreat sponsored by the San Francisco Men of Discipline. Held at Temptation Ranch in San Luis Obispo CA, the run was intimate, relaxing and filled with a sense of brotherhood and camaraderie. Derek and I got in several good scenes including an opportunity to co-top one of our best friends from San Francisco. If you hear one of the Men of Discipline talk about a fairly bloody needle scene during the closing hours of the run, be sure to ask him about the Family Recipe Rubbing Salts. The following weekend, Derek joined me in Seattle for some down time. Since he re-injured his medial collateral ligament while on maneuvers at BootCamp the week before, we didn’t get a chance to play too hard but we did manage to have a great few days together.

This past weekend I spent with Jeff. We went to the GLPW sponsored Seventh Deadly Sin Play Party Friday night and Twisted Family Picnic Saturday afternoon. On Sunday we attended the festivities downtown. It was actually a pretty low-key weekend. I’m not sure if Jeff has as good a time in my company as I do in his, but I hope so.

I’ve been reading through some reviews and will post some choice snippets tomorrow. Until then, I’ll leave you with the photos I promised from the performance at the House of Blues taken by Jerome of Chapter 9 Photography. You should check out his stuff; it’s pretty wack.

Coming Out in Kink

21 March 2008 11:03

CagedComing Out in KinkSeattle, WA –- Thanks to a tremendous amount of help from a lot of people, I was able to organize and host Coming Out in Kink last night at the Cuff Complex. The event, a joint fundraiser with the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence Abbey of St Joan (right, in part), raised nearly six hundred dollars for the Sisters’ Charity Grant Fund and the Scott Rodriguez Memorial Scholarship Fund. On the Abbey of St. Joan’s anniversary, the Sisters issue grants to non-profit organizations throughout Washington State from contributions made to their charity fund. The Scott A. Rodriguez Memorial Scholarship Fund, administered through the Pride Foundation of Seattle, awards six scholarships yearly. Three are awarded in the category of Leadership and three in the category of Athletics.

Coming Out in Kink (Bonus)The success of this event is due in large part to the generous product donation and marketing assistance provided by TitanMen.com. It is also a testament to the volunteer contributions made by the members of my community of family and friends. The Sisters were out in force selling raffle tickets and jell-shots. Northwest Community Bootblack, Henry was on-hand servicing boots. The patriarch of my leather family, Gene Romaine flogged willing participants for donations (photo left). And, of course, my boys Derek, Jeff, Rich and Steven stepped up and volunteered to help out along with two of our extended family, Gabe and Johnny. Together, they brought a very special approach to the sale of raffle tickets.

All this, however, would not have been enough to pull it off if it had not been for the support of Daddy Jeff & Puppy of Dog House Leathers and the entire staff at the Cuff. This event was an ambitious undertaking given my other responsibilities associated with producing the Washington State Mr & Ms Leather Contest this week. I am truly grateful for the quality of character displayed by those with whom I choose to share my life.

A Family Affair

2 March 2008 10:20

MonsignoreA Family AffairSeattle, WA –- Last night was the show for NW Sash Bash followed by the Extreme Play Party, both hosted by GLPW. My brothers, Gene and Odie pulled together the show and I MC’d. The show itself was cabaret-style with performance pieces, live auctions, introductions of current title-holders and raffles.

The performance pieces included Derek locked in a cage while I worked the microphone, Odie and Gene mummifying Rich (photo right), a flogging by Russell Harmon, rigging featuring my boy Jeff and a fantasy performed by US Daddy and Daddy’s boy, Erik and Earl (respectively).

All the events this weekend were fairly intimate gatherings and the show was no exception. While the audience was small, the enthusiasm and generosity was anything but. Our charity this year was Camp Ten Trees, a non-profit summer camp in the Pacific Northwest featuring a week for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, queer, and questioning (LGBTQ) youth and their allies, and a week for children of LGBTQ families.

Since our sponsors covered all our expenses, all the proceeds raised throughout the weekend will go to support this worthy charity. Once again Bear Leather Works, the Cuff Complex and Dog House Leathers have made positive contributions to our community and for that I am personally thankful.

A Family Affair (Bonus)Derek, Jeff and I went back to my place after the show to decompress a bit before the play party. We had a couple cocktails, listened to music, talked and fooled around, laughing the entire time. I know it seems too mundane to even mention here, but honestly it took a play party to pull us away we were enjoying our time alone together so much.

I was happy we went to the play party though. I got in two solid scenes, one with each of the boys. Derek and I hadn’t done our dynamic suspension scene here in Seattle and several of my friends that were in the dungeon had asked to see it, so we acquiesced to the requests. The rigging went smoothly and faster than the last time we did it in December. It still amazes me to watch him move in the rigging; it’s quite the sight (photo left). While there is a part of me that would have liked to do a heavier scene, I’m glad we did the suspension since we’ll be performing it as a demo at CLAW in April and this was probably the last time we’d get the opportunity to practice. Not to mention we have a shoot coming up in a couple of days.

A Family Affair (More)The second scene with Jeff was spectacular; his first flogging. Free standing against a rack, naked except for his boots, I took after him with the Buffalo hide flogger. Alternating through the back, buttocks, thighs and controlled wraps to the front torso (please note I wrote ‘controlled wraps’) I worked him over. His reactions were beautiful to behold and as easy to read as if we had been playing for a year or more. I brought him to the point of breaking and back again as Derek sat on the floor and watched, his dick growing hard as he took in Jeff’s experience. The shudders came. Jeff’s entire body shook uncontrollably, the convulsions marking his limits. I have him count out ten more lashes, each building in intensity. He takes them like the butch little fuck he is.

Derek joined us on the floor afterward. The three of us huddled together in the middle of the dungeon then soon after in bed.