25 May 2010 17:31
Seattle, WA – Three years ago this month, I flew down to Palm Springs CA and performed in my first adult feature, Soldiers of Misfortune, directed by Daddy Zeus (pictured right) for Zeus Studios. Daddy Zeus became a legend in my mind when he began capturing authentic BDSM and fetish on video in the mid ’90s. In features like Brute Force, Daddy Zeus paired accomplished and respected tops with hot bottoms in real scenes that depicted authentic play with a spirit and an edge that still speak to me as a player. Before Zeus, there was Christopher Rage, who masterfully captured this raw, animalistic sexuality on the fringe in the ’80s; and of course, the great grand-daddy of BDSM art films who first caught the essence of the urban ‘leatherman’ in the ’70s with LA Plays Itself, Fred Halsted. With my first film, I was excited to be making my contribution to the genre with my boy at the time, Derek da Silva, and we delivered a kick-ass-scene. A lot has happened since then.
By the end of my second shoot, this time with Titan Media for a Folsom/TitanMen co-branded feature called Fear, I was sold on the idea of partnering with the talent and quality that a major studio could offer in order to capture this thing of ours on screen. Before principle production had wrapped on my third project, I agreed to partner as an exclusive and become ‘the face of fetish’ for Titan. Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Art Films, BDSM, Christopher Rage, Community, Daddy Zeus, Fear, Folsom Prison, Fred Halsted, Rough, Service, Titan Media
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15 February 2010 14:26
Chicago, IL – The 16th Annual Hard Choice Awards were announced on XX-Factor yesterday. With sixteen years, the Hard Choice Awards are the second-oldest continuously running honors for all-male erotica. All gay adult films released in 2009 and reviewed in XX-Factor were eligible for consideration. Unlike the GayVNs, Grabbys and XBIZ Awards, I am told the Hard Choice Awards are determined by a single individual who has watched each film submitted for review. The winners were chosen by Onan the Vulgarian in conjunction with reviewer Harley Shadow. While these awards may not be representative of broad industry sentiment, I have always found them to be insightful and, at times, humorous. As I read the announcement yesterday, however, I was shocked to discover that I had been named this year’s Hard Choice Performer of the Year, with the following commentary… Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Art Films, Fist and Piss, Folsom Flesh, Hard Choice Awards, Performer of the Year, Rough, Titan Media, Triage, XX-Factor
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31 December 2009 21:44
Portland, OR – This is going to be a far more personal and reflective entry than most of those that I have written before. A couple weeks ago XBIZ, the adult industry association, announced their nominations for 2010 awards. Among nominations ranging from Toy Manufacture of the Year to GLBT Company of the year to Transsexual Performer of the Year, there are the nominations for Gay Director of the Year. Among the individuals I know and respect nominated for Gay Director of the Year are Brian Mills, Chi Chi LaRue, Chris Ward, Kristofer Weston, Mr. Pam (with Michael Lucas), Steve Cruz & Leif Gobo, Steven Scarborough, and Paul Wilde (who is co-nominated with me for our work on the Rough line). Wow! I definitely didn’t expect this kind of recognition when I first got into the industry.
To understand why I do what I have done and what motivates me toward the future, I offer my initial attractions, my proclivity toward rough trade, what it’s like getting caught in the act and how I’m cruising for more… Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Art Films, Bound and Beaten, Breakers, Chainsaw, Fear, Fist and Piss, Folsom Maneuvers, Folsom Prison, Folsom Undercover, Funhouse, Home Invasion, Rough, Shock Treatment, Squeeze Play, Titan Media, Triage, XBIZ
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17 November 2009 20:08
Seattle, WA – Landing in Seattle was like a return to reality. Often when I fly out to attend Chicago Hellfire Club (CHC) events, especially those with my boy Derek Da Silva, I feel as though I’ve escaped… escaped from the harsh realities of the day-to-day; escaped from the ever present judgment of those who don’t understand; escaped from every type of relationship except the type of relationship in which you would expect love and respect; escaped… I put my boy Derek in his place. We had an awesome three-way with Douggerz, his partner of more than a decade. I shared time with my brother Odie and Cousin Rob. I had a photo shoot to document my current physical state. I was pampered more than one would expect. And I ran some much over-due scenes. To give you I glimpse into all of these things… Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: BDSM, Boys, CHC, Community, Rigging
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24 May 2009 10:28
Chicago, IL – Yesterday evening I attended the 18th Annual Grabby Awards with my boys, Derek da Silva and Chris Yosef and our pup, Element (pictured right). We joined director Brian Mills and my fellow Titan exclusives Dean Flynn and Will Parker at the studio table and helped collect three Grabby honors. The first was Folsom Prison‘s Grabby for Best Fetish Video. This was a particular honor because I helped co-write Folsom Prison with Brian Mills and Diesel Washington and it was my first opportunity to help direct the scenes in which I performed. Titan Media also earned a Grabby for Best Art Direction with Funhouse and Dean Flynn took home Lucite as the Grabby’s Best Versatile Performer of 2008. Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Art Films, BDSM, Best Fetish Film, Boys, Breakers, Dean Flynn, Folsom Prison, Folsom Street Events, Funhouse, Grabbys, IML, Titan Media
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30 March 2009 11:09
San Francisco, CA –- Folsom Prison wins Best Fetish Film at the 11th Annual GayVN Awards at the Castro Theater in San Francisco. This marks the third year in a row that one of Titan Media’s co-branded features with Folsom Street Events has won the Best Fetish or Fetish (Extreme) category at the GayVNs with Folsom Filth in 2007 and Fear in 2008. It is also the second year in a row that Derek and I had scenes together in the winning feature (note: Derek has been in all three). I can’t help but feel a personal sense of accomplishment following this recognition since Folsom Prison was my first venture into writing and directing. Thanks to Brian Mills’ willingness to collaborate so fully, Diesel Washington and I have co-writing credit with him and I was given the opportunity to co-direct the scenes I have in the film.
Titan brought home three other chunks of Lucite. Breakers, Bruce Cam’s xxx directorial farewell, won both Best All-Sex Film and Best HD Feature. Tommy Ruckus and Jackson Wild won Best Solo Performance for their scene in Home Invasion.
I didn’t win Best Actor and neither Derek nor I were recognized as Best Fetish Performer.
Ricky Sinz took home the Best Actor award for his role in To the Last Man. I know Ricky personally; hang with him on occasion in Chi town and my congratulations go out to him. Ricky is a fine performer and a good guy. He’s also been a safer sex advocate and educator doing things like PSAs and benefits for local Chicago groups like Test Positive Aware Network (TPAN), which is greatly appreciated.
Tober Brandt was recognized as the Best Fetish Performer of the year. I consider Tober a friend and love him like a brother because he is a real player and a genuine person. He is also twisted, queer and fucked up in ways that make Derek and I feel kindred to him while at the same time fill us with brotherly concern. Tober would be the first to admit he never said he was a role model. Nevertheless, as performers I think we have a responsibility to set a positive example. Some may disagree with me, but Tober’s body of work this past year has included bareback performances that, in my opinion, run contrary to those efforts. Tober knows how I feel about these things. We have talked about them face to face and I respect that those decisions are his to make, but with no disrespect to Tober, I believe Derek would have been a better choice for Fetish Performer. Industry awards carry some weight and I would rather see it applied to promoting performers whose activities show responsibility to our community.
Of course these are the industry awards that gave several nominations and at least one individual award (Best Bottom) to Brent Corrigan, who started out not just with bareback performances but at the illegal age of seventeen. Now, I’m not suggesting that people shouldn’t be given a second chance, but I can’t help but wonder what repercussions will come to an industry that celebrates risk behavior and controversy so blatantly – more sales to the profiteers and more risk behavior in our own communities, I’m guessing.
Personally, I feel like I’ve already won. Less than two years ago, I entered the industry with a desire to bring safer sex and responsible play to the screen. Now I’m performing in and co-directing a new line of fetish/Sm features with Paul Wilde for Titan with Brian Mills as a mentor. Very few performers have ever been given such an opportunity.
I’m blessed. I have my boy Derek who convinced me to capture our passions on video and continually challenges me to up my game with every scene we do on set or off. And, I have a studio that has become a home. Bruce Cam and Titan Media have invested not just in me but in content that includes heavy fetish/Sm play with a consciousness of character. From performers and crews, through the editing and marketing departments, Titan represents quality in both product and principle.
I may not have been given the opportunity to do so on stage at the GayVNs, but I can express my appreciation here in this blog. Derek, Bruce, Keith, Brian and Paul… thank you for everything you have done and all that you have taught me.
Tags: Art Films, BDSM, Boys, Breakers, Folsom Prison, GayVNs, Home Invasion, Rough, Titan Media
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17 March 2009 10:36
Seattle, WA –- On Sunday, the 18th Annual Grabby Nominations were announced. Apparently, I have been given three individual nominations including: Best Newcomer, Best Actor for my role in Home Invasion, and Best Solo Sex Scene again in Home Invasion. Titan Media’s Home Invasion also earned a Best Movie nomination, Joe Gage nominations for Best Director and Best Screenplay, and Tyler Saint a Best Supporting Actor nomination.
Titan’s Folsom Prison and Folsom Undercover both earned Best Fetish Video nominations with Folsom Undercover also getting a nod for Best Box Cover. In the Best Fetish Extreme Video category, Sounding #1, which I did with Derek for Raging Stallion before signing with Titan, and Derek’s feature with Steel Mill Media, The Mechanic, both received nominations. Guess which one I’m rooting for…
Another of the features that I contributed to, Titan Media’s Funhouse also earned a nomination for Best Art Direction. And two of my favorite photographers, Brian Mills and Joe Oppedisano both received nominations for Best Still Photography.
You can check out all the nominations and nominees here.
Tags: Art Films, BDSM, Folsom Prison, Folsom Undercover, Funhouse, Grabbys, Home Invasion, Titan Media
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19 February 2009 12:06
Seattle, WA –- Given the amount of focus and energy I have been spending on ‘what’s next’ I haven’t had much time to reflect on the past year and the body of work created. Truth is I was on set at the Titan studios filming the first in our upcoming line of hardcore fetish/Sm line of features on Tuesday last week when the slurry of messages began coming in regarding the GayVN Awards nominations. I must admit, I am honored to be among the many, many talented individuals recognized for their contributions to the industry and just as pleased to have played a role in helping to create many of the nominated features released by Titan Media.
The previously un-reported addition of a category for Best Fetish Performer was the most pleasant surprise for me personally. The inclusion of this category represents the growing trend toward more BDSM/fetish content within the industry and a validation of the efforts many of us have been making to bring responsible portrayals of our play to the screen. I am honored to be among the first nominees to this new category and doubly proud that my boy Derek da Silva shares this distinction with a nomination of his own. Considering the fact that four of the features nominated for Best Fetish Film (Folsom Prison, Sounding #1, Folsom Undercover & the Mechanic) feature performances from either one or both of us, I think it is safe to claim the efforts we’ve made to bring this thing of ours to a broader audience of new and potential players.
My second individual nod came in the form of a Best Actor nomination for my role in Home Invasion. From my experience on stage I know that any actor’s performance is only as good as the script they’re working off and the director they are working under (no pun intended), so it came as no surprise that Joe Gage received both Best Director and Best Screenplay nominations for Home Invasion, that Tyler Saint would get a Best Supporting Actor nom or Tommy Ruckus and Jackson Wild would get a joint Best Solo Performance nod for their roles in the film. Home Invasion is also the source of the first of two Best Group Scene nominations that include me, this one shared with Jackson Wild, Sean Preston, Ty Roberts and Tommy Ruckus (although I’m pretty sure that scene also included Geoffrey Paine).
I did two features directed by Brian Mills from the co-branded TitanMen/Folsom line of hardcore/fetish films that garnered a total of five nominations. As mentioned, Folsom Prison was nominated for Best Fetish Film. The other Best Group Scene nomination came for my performance in Folsom Undercover with Tyler Peter, Dirk Jager and Frank Philipp. Folsom Undercover received three other nominations including Best Leather Film, Best Marketing and Best Fetish Film.
Those of us at the studio were truly happy to learn Breakers received so many nominations since it was director Bruce Cam’s farewell opus and the first gay adult film released on Blu-ray. The film earned Bruce a Best Director nomination in addition to nods for Best Picture, Best All-Sex Film, Best HD Feature, Best Packaging, Best Marketing, Best DVD Extras and Best DVD Special Edition. My co-director on the new fetish/Sm line for Titan, Paul Wilde and cameraman Jeff Slurry received Best Cinematography nominations for their work on Breakers. James Sheridan and Kawai, who will be editing the new line, also received nods for Best Editing on the film. And the performances delivered by Dean Flynn, Rick van Sant and myself earned a Best Threesome nomination for our contributions.
Of final note here is Titan’s third fantasy trip to the carnival, Funhouse. This visually stunning feature earned Brian Mills a Best Director nomination in addition to a Best Art Direction nom for both him and Paul Wilde. The film also garnered a nomination for Best All-Sex Film and Dean Flynn and Eric Moreau a Best Sex Scene – Duo nom.
The GAYVN Awards are dedicated to recognizing outstanding movies and talented individuals who have contributed to the advancement of the gay adult entertainment industry. Its broad-based, nation-wide panel of judges, predominantly gay-press-affiliated, has been awarding trophies for 21 years, making the GAYVN Awards the most respected and recognized awards in gay adult entertainment history. You can view a complete list of all the 2009 GayVN Award Nominations or Titan Media’s Press Release at your leisure. The 2009 GayVN Awards Show will be held at the Castro Theatre in San Francisco on Saturday, March 28th, 2009. You can buy tickets for all the weekend events here. You can bet Derek and I will be there.
Tags: Art Films, BDSM, Boys, Breakers, Folsom Prison, Folsom Undercover, Funhouse, GayVNs, Home Invasion, Titan Media
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30 January 2009 19:10
Seattle, WA – So, I met this boy… Yeah, I know… What’s fuckin’ new? Well, this one for starters.
His name is Tim, but I’ve taken to calling him ‘Blueeyes’ for obvious reasons. I met him over a year ago at a party but he was with another rigger friend of mine so didn’t go any further than the introduction. At least not until receiving a message from him a few days after creating a Recon account early last month.
It really couldn’t have come at a better time. I had just found out that the boy, Jeff, who I had been courting here in Seattle for more than a year had met someone, fallen in love and settled into a relationship with this other person. It didn’t come as much of a shock, but was rather heartbreaking nonetheless. I fell in love with the boy, I gave him a glimpse into my world, and I’m sure he loved me too, but the truth is Jeff wasn’t looking for the kind of relationship I was offering. And, in reality, truth is more important than desire.
As smitten as I was with Jeff when we first met I have to admit, the courting of this new boy has taken me by surprise. The first night we met out for drinks, I choked him out three times in the little local neighborhood bar. I had him strung from my ceiling shortly thereafter and been exploring all number of things since. I have a feeling this new relationship has the potential to develop quite rapidly, primarily because this boy is an actual player with some experience who has fully embraced his taste for BDSM and established a place for himself in the community.
He may only be 23, but this kid appears to have his head on straight. His basic philosophy and approach to play is strikingly similar to mine and from our conversations it seems we share those core values I write about so often in common. He has also expressed interest in many of my favorite sadomasochist arts and he’s a switch which means I might have found a boy in who I could invest some of my more advanced skills so they might be passed on to another generation.
I don’t know where this might lead. The connection here is strong but I will be proceeding with caution. I will say this I’m really enjoying our time together and having him at my side for the SML social Wednesday night made the event one of the best in my memory (photos above).
Tags: BDSM, Boys, Dragon Clan, SML
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10 December 2008 21:18
35,000 ft –- This morning I woke up early, got online and received a much unexpected message. I haven’t been quite right since…
About seven years ago, I collared my first boy. His name was Chris. Ours was a connection unlike anything I had ever felt. He was the first boy I ever fisted and I was the first to fist him. We built an unprecedented level of trust; we were fluidly bonded. Our play had an intimacy and intensity that I couldn’t even begin to describe. I fell so in love with that boy, I realized I had never been in love before.
During our second year together, we even got matching tattoos, Kabalistic representations of the energy that attracts and binds soul mates. I got mine just below my left deltoid where the armband identifying a Dom would be placed and he got his just below the right indicating his place as my boy. Read the rest of this entry »
Tags: Art Films, BDSM, Boys
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Seattle, WA – Three years ago this month, I flew down to Palm Springs CA and performed in my first adult feature, Soldiers of Misfortune, directed by Daddy Zeus (pictured right) for Zeus Studios. Daddy Zeus became a legend in my mind when he began capturing authentic BDSM and fetish on video in the mid ’90s. In features like Brute Force, Daddy Zeus paired accomplished and respected tops with hot bottoms in real scenes that depicted authentic play with a spirit and an edge that still speak to me as a player. Before Zeus, there was Christopher Rage, who masterfully captured this raw, animalistic sexuality on the fringe in the ’80s; and of course, the great grand-daddy of BDSM art films who first caught the essence of the urban ‘leatherman’ in the ’70s with LA Plays Itself, Fred Halsted. With my first film, I was excited to be making my contribution to the genre with my boy at the time, Derek da Silva, and we delivered a kick-ass-scene. A lot has happened since then. 
