Three Years and Twenty-Five Productions

25 May 2010 17:31

ReflectiveThree Years and Twenty-Five ProductionsSeattle, WA – Three years ago this month, I flew down to Palm Springs CA and performed in my first adult feature, Soldiers of Misfortune, directed by Daddy Zeus (pictured right) for Zeus Studios. Daddy Zeus became a legend in my mind when he began capturing authentic BDSM and fetish on video in the mid ’90s. In features like Brute Force, Daddy Zeus paired accomplished and respected tops with hot bottoms in real scenes that depicted authentic play with a spirit and an edge that still speak to me as a player. Before Zeus, there was Christopher Rage, who masterfully captured this raw, animalistic sexuality on the fringe in the ’80s; and of course, the great grand-daddy of BDSM art films who first caught the essence of the urban ‘leatherman’ in the ’70s with LA Plays Itself, Fred Halsted. With my first film, I was excited to be making my contribution to the genre with my boy at the time, Derek da Silva, and we delivered a kick-ass-scene. A lot has happened since then.

By the end of my second shoot, this time with Titan Media for a Folsom/TitanMen co-branded feature called Fear, I was sold on the idea of partnering with the talent and quality that a major studio could offer in order to capture this thing of ours on screen. Before principle production had wrapped on my third project, I agreed to partner as an exclusive and become ‘the face of fetish’ for Titan. Read the rest of this entry »

Hard Choice Performer of the Year

15 February 2010 14:26

ReflectiveHard Choice Performer of the YearChicago, IL – The 16th Annual Hard Choice Awards were announced on XX-Factor yesterday. With sixteen years, the Hard Choice Awards are the second-oldest continuously running honors for all-male erotica. All gay adult films released in 2009 and reviewed in XX-Factor were eligible for consideration. Unlike the GayVNs, Grabbys and XBIZ Awards, I am told the Hard Choice Awards are determined by a single individual who has watched each film submitted for review. The winners were chosen by Onan the Vulgarian in conjunction with reviewer Harley Shadow. While these awards may not be representative of broad industry sentiment, I have always found them to be insightful and, at times, humorous. As I read the announcement yesterday, however, I was shocked to discover that I had been named this year’s Hard Choice Performer of the Year, with the following commentary… Read the rest of this entry »

Why the Fuck am I Doing This?

31 December 2009 21:44

ReflectiveWhy the Fuck am I Doing This?Portland, OR – This is going to be a far more personal and reflective entry than most of those that I have written before. A couple weeks ago XBIZ, the adult industry association, announced their nominations for 2010 awards. Among nominations ranging from Toy Manufacture of the Year to GLBT Company of the year to Transsexual Performer of the Year, there are the nominations for Gay Director of the Year. Among the individuals I know and respect nominated for Gay Director of the Year are Brian Mills, Chi Chi LaRue, Chris Ward, Kristofer Weston, Mr. Pam (with Michael Lucas), Steve Cruz & Leif Gobo, Steven Scarborough, and Paul Wilde (who is co-nominated with me for our work on the Rough line). Wow! I definitely didn’t expect this kind of recognition when I first got into the industry.

To understand why I do what I have done and what motivates me toward the future, I offer my initial attractions, my proclivity toward rough trade, what it’s like getting caught in the act and how I’m cruising for more… Read the rest of this entry »

Associate Applicants’ Weekend 2009

17 November 2009 20:08

ReflectiveAssociate Applicants' Weekend 2009Seattle, WA – Landing in Seattle was like a return to reality. Often when I fly out to attend Chicago Hellfire Club (CHC) events, especially those with my boy Derek Da Silva, I feel as though I’ve escaped… escaped from the harsh realities of the day-to-day; escaped from the ever present judgment of those who don’t understand; escaped from every type of relationship except the type of relationship in which you would expect love and respect; escaped… I put my boy Derek in his place. We had an awesome three-way with Douggerz, his partner of more than a decade. I shared time with my brother Odie and Cousin Rob. I had a photo shoot to document my current physical state. I was pampered more than one would expect. And I ran some much over-due scenes. To give you I glimpse into all of these things… Read the rest of this entry »

Folsom Prison Wins Best Fetish Film at 2009 Grabbys

24 May 2009 10:28

ReflectiveFolsom Prison Wins Best Fetish Film at 2009 GrabbysChicago, IL – Yesterday evening I attended the 18th Annual Grabby Awards with my boys, Derek da Silva and Chris Yosef and our pup, Element (pictured right). We joined director Brian Mills and my fellow Titan exclusives Dean Flynn and Will Parker at the studio table and helped collect three Grabby honors. The first was Folsom Prison‘s Grabby for Best Fetish Video. This was a particular honor because I helped co-write Folsom Prison with Brian Mills and Diesel Washington and it was my first opportunity to help direct the scenes in which I performed. Titan Media also earned a Grabby for Best Art Direction with Funhouse and Dean Flynn took home Lucite as the Grabby’s Best Versatile Performer of 2008. Read the rest of this entry »

Folsom Prison Wins GayVN Best Fetish Film

30 March 2009 11:09

ReflectiveFolsom Prison Wins GayVNs Best Fetish FilmSan Francisco, CA –- Folsom Prison wins Best Fetish Film at the 11th Annual GayVN Awards at the Castro Theater in San Francisco. This marks the third year in a row that one of Titan Media’s co-branded features with Folsom Street Events has won the Best Fetish or Fetish (Extreme) category at the GayVNs with Folsom Filth in 2007 and Fear in 2008. It is also the second year in a row that Derek and I had scenes together in the winning feature (note: Derek has been in all three). I can’t help but feel a personal sense of accomplishment following this recognition since Folsom Prison was my first venture into writing and directing. Thanks to Brian Mills’ willingness to collaborate so fully, Diesel Washington and I have co-writing credit with him and I was given the opportunity to co-direct the scenes I have in the film.

Titan brought home three other chunks of Lucite. Breakers, Bruce Cam’s xxx directorial farewell, won both Best All-Sex Film and Best HD Feature. Tommy Ruckus and Jackson Wild won Best Solo Performance for their scene in Home Invasion.

I didn’t win Best Actor and neither Derek nor I were recognized as Best Fetish Performer.

Ricky Sinz took home the Best Actor award for his role in To the Last Man. I know Ricky personally; hang with him on occasion in Chi town and my congratulations go out to him. Ricky is a fine performer and a good guy. He’s also been a safer sex advocate and educator doing things like PSAs and benefits for local Chicago groups like Test Positive Aware Network (TPAN), which is greatly appreciated.

Tober Brandt was recognized as the Best Fetish Performer of the year. I consider Tober a friend and love him like a brother because he is a real player and a genuine person. He is also twisted, queer and fucked up in ways that make Derek and I feel kindred to him while at the same time fill us with brotherly concern. Tober would be the first to admit he never said he was a role model. Nevertheless, as performers I think we have a responsibility to set a positive example. Some may disagree with me, but Tober’s body of work this past year has included bareback performances that, in my opinion, run contrary to those efforts. Tober knows how I feel about these things. We have talked about them face to face and I respect that those decisions are his to make, but with no disrespect to Tober, I believe Derek would have been a better choice for Fetish Performer. Industry awards carry some weight and I would rather see it applied to promoting performers whose activities show responsibility to our community.

Of course these are the industry awards that gave several nominations and at least one individual award (Best Bottom) to Brent Corrigan, who started out not just with bareback performances but at the illegal age of seventeen. Now, I’m not suggesting that people shouldn’t be given a second chance, but I can’t help but wonder what repercussions will come to an industry that celebrates risk behavior and controversy so blatantly – more sales to the profiteers and more risk behavior in our own communities, I’m guessing.

Folsom Prison Wins GayVNs Best Fetish FilmPersonally, I feel like I’ve already won. Less than two years ago, I entered the industry with a desire to bring safer sex and responsible play to the screen. Now I’m performing in and co-directing a new line of fetish/Sm features with Paul Wilde for Titan with Brian Mills as a mentor. Very few performers have ever been given such an opportunity.

I’m blessed. I have my boy Derek who convinced me to capture our passions on video and continually challenges me to up my game with every scene we do on set or off. And, I have a studio that has become a home. Bruce Cam and Titan Media have invested not just in me but in content that includes heavy fetish/Sm play with a consciousness of character. From performers and crews, through the editing and marketing departments, Titan represents quality in both product and principle.

I may not have been given the opportunity to do so on stage at the GayVNs, but I can express my appreciation here in this blog. Derek, Bruce, Keith, Brian and Paul… thank you for everything you have done and all that you have taught me.